The Other Man in My Life

Even though Jimmy appreciates the progress I’ve made soothing my soul over the last six months, I’m still on my own for the most part, when it comes to meditating. And chanting. The other night, I was in need of some major Krishna Das chanting, so I closed...

My Hippocratic Oath

From the moment I googled Hippocrates and read that he believed “rest and immobilization [were] of capital importance,” I knew I could follow his advice happily. I’m starting my new year off in bed. For periods of rest and...

A Line in the Water

I spent the first half of this year investigating why I developed a panic disorder, delving into many relevant issues, including what my parents did or didn’t do. But at the Mikvah, submerged underwater, suspended in time for just a few moments, I let go of something...

Eternal Light

I am still feeling the effects of the mikvah – a lightness of body and spirit that I have never experienced before. I am reminded of Chanei’s words to me: “Your soul is like a flame that is in constant search. It will nag away until it finds...